This is Sophie

We got her today. The kids love her so far, but they really scare the crap out of her. Everytime we take her out of the cage, she crawls between any little hole she can find (usually between my legs) because she's scared.. Hopefully that will pass within a few days. She makes the cutest sounds when you pick her up. Brad was holding her and she sounded like a pigeon cooing. She also squeaks, but we haven't heard THAT noise since the guy in the Petco picked her up for us. She's a guinea pig.. in case her fur got in the way and you can't tell. :) And Samuel named her after the little girl in the BFG.

Update on my plants and other things!

So my peppers and eggplant seeds are catching up!!! My cucumbers have fallen into last place, which is depressingly sad because that is the thing I was looking foward to eating the most.. but they still have time! Maybe they just need a little encouragement, love, and a kiss... or something. anyway here's some new pictures of the plants...



Well Ben was chewing his Trix this morning and said he had a toothache.. So we looked into his mouth and sure enough.. the kid has a huge cavity.. :( Poor thing, we've been putting ambesol and we gave him tylenol, gonna make him an appointment tomorrow.

My printer needs a breather

So, the kids' latest report cards have them struggling in a few areas (which totally makes me feel like an awful parent) and so I've been printing out worksheets to do with them all morning. I know I spend a lot of time with the kids, but I know that I could be doing better, and am going to focus more on them. It's always been a task to do because I can't concentrate on one without the others feeling left out, but I'll find a way. Maybe with Brad helping one and me helping another, and SOMETHING distracting the third.. lol...Anyway, This morning Benjamin and Brad and I worked on a few worksheets with him, I kept asking him questions and he made me so proud by answering them all. We did a shapes worksheet and colored the shapes different colors so I was asking him "what color is the star" "what shape is blue" etc and after a while he was done.. stopped answering correctly, and we know that's a sign he's had enough so we ended his session lol. It feels good to do these things with the kids though, so I hope my printer doesn't run outta ink anytime soon..

My plants!!!

Cucumbers, Peppers, Tomatoes OH MY

I planted cucumbers, peppers, tomatoes, eggplant (wow I planted soooo much stuff), chives, basil, summer squash, lettuce...I think that's it!
It was really fun to have the kids outside "helping" me. They really didn't do anything but stare at me the whole time but I'm sure they learned something!!
Now for the prayers that the things will actually grow. I know it's a little too soon but as soon as i publish this, I'm going to go take a peek at the little greenhouses I have.



Oh hey, you like how I've been blogging regularly? I know its only been for three days now so I am not going to promise that I keep it up, but I'm going to TRY a little harder :)

Me and My Red Thumb

As long as I can remember I've wanted to have indoor plants, flower beds outside, gardens...
I am not sure what I do to them, or.. if I am just cursed, but EVERYTIME I bring home a plant or try to grow a garden...it dies...Saria has even had growing seeds in school that she has proudly taken home which have died days later. Last year I tried to do a garden with a buncha herbs and veggies and it was going really well and when we got back home from a weekend trip everything was roasted and dead from the sun. SO I am determined to make one that works..and upon seeing Miss Hila's tomatoes.. and being JEALOUS, I'm going to nerd up on it (read, research) to keep the plants alive this year..please wish me luck, and even say a prayer, because having the DEADLY Midas Touch sorta depresses me..

An old Pair of Shoes

When I was a teenager I owned this awesome pair of shoes that I was so proud to have purchased at the dollar store for 2 dollars and 50 cents. I remember this now because I actually had a dream about this particular pair of shoes not too long ago. I KNOW the reason I had the dream was to settle my mind because for the past few months I've not talked to a couple people in my family, and these shoes are proof to me that I'm not necessarily RIGHT in not talking to them, but that my reasonings are valid.

I could go off into a tangent and type for hours, but no matter how I begin, it ends the same way. PITY ME!!!! BOO HOO ME!!!

I think after 27 years of this treatment, it's time to let it all go.

I am tired of forgiving people that are supposed to love me, but I always will.

I am proud of the way my life turned out, proud of the family that I have, and proud of where I am in life, and cannot POSSIBLY understand why the people that are supposed to love me cannot be proud of me.

Live today to the fullest because you are not guaranteed a tomorrow.


All children need love from both of their parents (BOTH)
and while all children are not the same, they should be LOVED the same

I've always been the black sheep in some form or another, and the funny thing is.. I keep allowing it to happen.

Its time to let it go...I'm moving on, and I wanted you to know that while I will always hurt inside, I'm letting go..