Cucumbers, Peppers, Tomatoes OH MY

I planted cucumbers, peppers, tomatoes, eggplant (wow I planted soooo much stuff), chives, basil, summer squash, lettuce...I think that's it!
It was really fun to have the kids outside "helping" me. They really didn't do anything but stare at me the whole time but I'm sure they learned something!!
Now for the prayers that the things will actually grow. I know it's a little too soon but as soon as i publish this, I'm going to go take a peek at the little greenhouses I have.



Oh hey, you like how I've been blogging regularly? I know its only been for three days now so I am not going to promise that I keep it up, but I'm going to TRY a little harder :)

Me and My Red Thumb

As long as I can remember I've wanted to have indoor plants, flower beds outside, gardens...
I am not sure what I do to them, or.. if I am just cursed, but EVERYTIME I bring home a plant or try to grow a garden...it dies...Saria has even had growing seeds in school that she has proudly taken home which have died days later. Last year I tried to do a garden with a buncha herbs and veggies and it was going really well and when we got back home from a weekend trip everything was roasted and dead from the sun. SO I am determined to make one that works..and upon seeing Miss Hila's tomatoes.. and being JEALOUS, I'm going to nerd up on it (read, research) to keep the plants alive this year..please wish me luck, and even say a prayer, because having the DEADLY Midas Touch sorta depresses me..

An old Pair of Shoes

When I was a teenager I owned this awesome pair of shoes that I was so proud to have purchased at the dollar store for 2 dollars and 50 cents. I remember this now because I actually had a dream about this particular pair of shoes not too long ago. I KNOW the reason I had the dream was to settle my mind because for the past few months I've not talked to a couple people in my family, and these shoes are proof to me that I'm not necessarily RIGHT in not talking to them, but that my reasonings are valid.

I could go off into a tangent and type for hours, but no matter how I begin, it ends the same way. PITY ME!!!! BOO HOO ME!!!

I think after 27 years of this treatment, it's time to let it all go.

I am tired of forgiving people that are supposed to love me, but I always will.

I am proud of the way my life turned out, proud of the family that I have, and proud of where I am in life, and cannot POSSIBLY understand why the people that are supposed to love me cannot be proud of me.

Live today to the fullest because you are not guaranteed a tomorrow.


All children need love from both of their parents (BOTH)
and while all children are not the same, they should be LOVED the same

I've always been the black sheep in some form or another, and the funny thing is.. I keep allowing it to happen.

Its time to let it go...I'm moving on, and I wanted you to know that while I will always hurt inside, I'm letting go..